A transition phase!!

On this day of your life,I believe God wants you to know...

...that life begins at the end of your comfort zone.

You won't find glory at the center of safety, but at its

edge. You won't find love at a place where you are

covered, but in the space where you are naked.

You gotta take some risks. You have to not only pick

up the dice, but roll 'em. So go ahead, take the gamble.

You have nothing to lose except the chance to win.

Life is not long enough to spend it on the sidelines.

 

This might seem like a simple , random message...but it isn't. It states the truth about my life in this moment. Yup...I'm in a transition phase. I am scared , yes, anxious too but there's a slight sense of excitment along with those emotions for soon I shall move out and be on my own. It's a big responsiblity and a huge transition phase for me. I hope to do myself proud!!

A Yearning and a Desire

I can't even begin to voice in words the sort of helplessness i feel off late to just do something that makes my life count, something that transforms my life and transmutates my circumstances into gold.  I'm thrilled to have gotten out of that 5 year long cycle of depression and I shall never wish something so painful upon anyone..if I were to have any enemies ( i hope not for in the end it'd harm my health and wealth being) not even on them.

I have yearned to find answers and have searched desperately for them from website to website, article to article. At times i was exasperated and there was a time i was convinced and had left the so called metaphysical world. But i don't quite remember how i got lulled back into it. Maybe it is indeed the calling of my soul? to find these answers? Oh but it's a frustrating process at times. And I sure get impatient.

I do wish to offer my gratitute to God for ending a painful episode in my life. With depression gone , I can now focus on ridding myself of certain unconstructive habits and inculcating new and healthy ones.
I have already started with Yoga , feb 20 th onwards and it really does feel awesome to be doing something for my own well being , its my way of expressing my love for my body, something I neglected for a long long time!

I have a dear friends Birthday tomorrow. She's been a blessing to me and I shall always love her . She was there for me during my hard times and was a source of constant support for which i'd be eternally grateful. We sort of grew distant in the past few months but i'm glad to be meeting her tomorrow.
What gift should I give her? I kept asking myself. And yes there were a few objects or things that came to my mind but what I deeply yearn to gift to a friend so endeared is the gift of limitless, magical life.

Yes, I wish I could gift each of my friends the ability to live their lives to the fullest , to tap the hidden potential within them and to fulfil their dreams no matter how grand they be. I don't feel content in referring any of my good friends to some random teacher ( not that i'm against that) but wish to teach them lovingly that they do possess the power to live a magical and exceptional life. I do have however one limitation.
I'm yet to do the same myself! I must learn first what i so yearn to teach and that's exactly what drives me so impatient. For i keep wondering how I'm to go about it all, how I'm to learn the tricks of transforming human lives. Can I do it? Do I have it in me? I need to become self reliant and self confident first , only then can i even imagine going further in the direction of my dreams.

How am I That?

Whoh! It's been a while since I wrote anything here!

When will I let go of the perfectionism and just allow myself to write? , I sometimes ask myself in utter exasperation. I sure am getting better now, I know that in my bones, so I'm hopeful. And I intend to take mini steps towards the destination "Giving myself the permission to write and to enjoy the process".

There's much learning that has happened for me in the past few months but I always kept looking for some other better day/better mood to report it all in my blog. I wish to write it so I don't forget ( and that's somehow very important for me I' not sure why) and so I be grateful for the journey and if in the future someone ever taps on my shoulder and asks me about the 'process' , I may be able to give that soul "some" good , useful, constructive guidance. I'm kind of trying to make a 'route map' here. :)

So I thought so what if I can't write regularly for now..I could try sharing/recording mini nuggets of wisdom that I like collecting from different sources..for myself and for my readers :)

Here's one I liked for the concept of mirroring fascinates me ( for now) to no end!

P.S. - This excerpt  is from the book "The Power of Full Engagement" by Jim Loehr and Tony Schwartz