I am Back!

Dear Readers,

Forgive me for my absence for the past 2 months. I shall hereby try and record events from my life on a more frequent basis for the sole purpose behind the creation of this blog is to track my growth and to help others by helping myself. Post witnessing all that I've gone through during the past 60 days ( I'm writing this post after an exact gap of 2 months lol) I sincerely believe that my life will and is changing for the better. Of course I am struck with self doubt from time to time. I , after all, have a lot of work to do on myself but I sure intend to enjoy the journey regardless of the ups and downs which are sure to come as certain patterns get dissolved I guess.

So I'm 23 now and since the past 2 or 3 years I've been feeling a nudge to jot down my experiences, thoughts, feelings and observations. I'm sure I could get hold of the exact date by looking into one of my journals but ah how does it matter! So the thing is that for some reason or the other and account of one or the other excuse I kept ignoring that nudge, kept telling myself that it's just some wishy washy thing that'll not serve me in anyway, that no one would want to read my blog , not even I!!, that I'd never know what to write about, that sharing my life details with others is the worst thing i could do , that I may end up embarassing myself unecessarily ...blah blah...you got the idea. But now I feel like I've reached a point wherein I'm "really" wanting to move to a higher or better vibrational level, to shift my energy for the better and to take life to a different dimension. I don't know how I'd do it , all I know ...thanks to Revd. Jennifer Hadley's "Course in Miracles" Teleseminars is that "All you gotta show is a little willingness" , the rest would just fall in place. So here I am, with the willingness and the intent. Maybe blogging about my spiritual growth makes no sense in this moment but acting deaf to this soul call ( if I may call it that) ain't gonna serve me in any way. If anything it'll make me all the more restless ( as I've been feeling everytime I thought of blogging about a certain experience and then put it off for some other time!).

Some magical things have occured during this period of 60 days. Of course there were some rough patches too but I'd choose to count my blessings! I believe I'll have to create a new blog for that, recollect the important events and share it with you guys. Why? because I feel like, that's why! And well, of course in my mind I'm always aware that this blog would be a living proof of my success, of my beautiful journey, an evidence of my learning curve and something I could always look back to for encouragement! :)
For now I'd just share that the most magical thing that has happened is my 'moving away from my home and living in a comfortable, nice, secure girl's hostel with my sister that offers delicious food everyday and was So not in our budget (if I were to look at it from a non abundant view point :P - well, I still have lots of issues around abundance that I am praying to resolve and let go of) The second thing has to be my going for an airline's interview and realizing out of the blue that I 'want' to finish my graduation degree, that there is something important that lies for me 'beyond' it! Like it isn't just a simple graduation but something far more important. I just hope I'm not imagining it all! What's even interesting is that inspite of being a distant learning student , a student who is pursuing her graduation through correspondence I have managed to receive sittings in a regular college. That means I'd finally fulfil my dream of actually attending several lectures a day, participating in discussions etc. English literatuare was too boring without it all :p
And yes lots of other things here and there. Would love to pen them down at some other time though.

Another very important decision that I made , I believe, was to order the "Course in Miracles" book...to decide to study the course and implement the teachings in my life. I learnt through the free Teleseminars I chose to attend or rather listen to ( organised by Rev. Jennifer Hadley - there were 8 speakers in all!) that the basic foundation for this course is "Forgiveness". I had been feeling the need to forgive ( I'm not quite sure who all ) and let go of all the clutter and I felt like this book could guide me and show me the path. I'm eagerly awaiting it's arrival. This decision I feel, will bring about some important changes.:D

Also, I'm happy to share that I have decided to attend the 6 day "Everything is Energy Summit being organized by David and Kristen Morelli.I must clarify that when I say attend I mean I'd be listening to the telecalls. These calls shall be free for 24 hours. Isn't that great? I'm hoping to make some interesting energy shifts and understand and clarify certain concepts during the upcoming 6 days ( from tomorrow onwards!) CaNt WaIt!! :D

Yesterday I ended up watching one of Lilou Mace's "Juicy living Tour" videos and I realized that that's "Exactly" what I have always wanted to do! I have long yearned to travel, I absolutely LOVE to talk to people from different cultures that have something interesting to share with me or teach me and in my idea book I had once jotted down that for me the perfect work would be one wherein I get to interview different authors, healers, metaphysical teachers, ordinary people with extraordinary stories etc such that I could share the same with people and help them grow just as much as I would grow. Gosh the very idea of the kind of learning I shall undergo if I were to do that makes my heart sing!!! I remember watching say two or three videos of her and I never liked them. I felt like she didn't believe in what she was saying and that she didn't have enough confidence. But when I heard one of her interviews yesterday I knew how mistaken I was. The woman has changed! From her energy to her face to her confidence...everything seems to have undergone a radical change and wow, you can't imagine the kind of hope that gave to me for myself!! I have her to thank for my return to this blog. In some mysterious way her persistance has filled me with a sense of awe and has made me believe in myself all the more. I have often thought of travelling around the world and interview the people I'd like to , people I think others could learn a lot from. Lilou's Juicy living tour has validated my dream for me. For a moment I thought to myself..."If she's already doing such a tour why would anyone care to be a part of the tour that I shall conduct? It then struck me that every flower has a different fragrance and that every human being has different gift. There are so many singers in the music industry. Would someone passionate about singing ever think of quitting it just because there's a lot many singers already available in the Movie Industry?


Until next time..
Stay blessed :)